Oh hello you guys . I'm depressed right now . My mom asked me this afternoon whether I want to change back my school . Hmm , I don't know . It's true , I miss my friends so much but in the same time I feel its really hard to let go such an amazing school . It's hard to get a place in the school you know . Hmph , I don't really know what to decide . My mom said it's hard to send me to school every morning bcs my mom also have to work . She also doesn't know who is going to look after me if she in the night shift . Oh Allah , please help me . Hope that I will get the place in the school's hostel . Actually , I don't want to go stay in the hostel bcs I'm afraid I will get homesick . But , it's for my mom and my benefits too . I don't know what to say . Okay , shut up that subject -__-As you all know , I am now SINGLE . And I hadn't felt it for such a long time . OH MY , I actually didn't cry when the night we broke . I don't know why , I love him so much . But , I don't know if its true that I didn't have feelings anymore towards him ? I guess , I'm too tired of crying . What benefits am I getting of crying ? I've been crying for a long time , until it already became my hobby . But who cares ? I just love to cry , no one will ever understands my feelings , NO ONE .
Now , I'm currently being attached to someone . His name is not going to public , alrighty ? He's a medium type of guy . Grrr , I can't talk about him anymore bcs if I thinked about him I'm blushed , HEE xD
I always dreamed that my life story will be like a drama , with passion , true love , and true belief . But I know , its never gonna happen . True men are dying and facing extinction nowadays . Haha , am I right girls ?
Okay , offline mood .
singing : " It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep . 'cause everything is never as it seems "
Kisses and loves ,
Syafiqa :)
11:03 PM
