Everybody's back to school but I still sitting here infront of the laptop . Hard to admit , it's quite boring for not having my friends around . Wondering , what are they doing right now . It's 4.30 PM , must be they have ended the homeroom meeting , for sure . It's been ages since we didn't do the homeroom meeting . But , I still love resting at home you know . Clearing my minds off those pathetic homeworks but yet , I'll be killing myself completing those homeworks when i get back . It's insane giving boarding school children alot of homeworks , it might lead to suicide . Students nowadays have less patience and can't think wisely , I admit . Just think , their time is limited , very very awfuly limited and they're still children , HELLO . Ugh , no point talking --'And yeah , I'm alone . Mom and Najwa are out . Mom went to Bukit Indah to buy something for breaking fast and Najwa went to school . Ugh , I woke up at 3.25 PM and checked my phone ; 10 missed calls ; 5 new messages . Two of them were his messages . We were quite having a fight last night . You know , it's all my fault . If isn't me , it wouldn't happen . And right now , I'm IM-ing him , he even doesn't want to reply .
I'm feeling sick , my body aching everywhere . I'm too lazy to get up just now since Tiger was comforting me with his soft fur . Mom said that he had sleeping beside me for hours and we looked cute that makes my mom felt sympathy to wake me up . Awe , btw , thanks Mom . Mom had been awfuly nice to me recently . It makes me bad , totally bad . First , my Sony Ericsson were stolen . Shit fucking asshole to the pretty little thief who stole my phone . Then , my mom bought a new one , LG :) Just a normal phone , no camera , no mp3 , just radio . Then , it was caught by the warden . Nvm , I'll get it back before Raya , hopefully . Now , my mom bought again Samsung's handphone . It's pretty sporty , with only black & white in colour . But , it's just an ordinary phone . Hell yeah , I miss my Sony's but at some point we have to let go the thing we love the most right ?
I've learned alot from Allah in a short period of time . Alhamdulillah :) I'm growing even more matured every second just I don't want people to know . I want people to feel easy when they're with me , the real me . I don't want to be a hypocrite , and I'll learn to be better . I just need someone who can hang me through ups and downs for the rest of my life . I've seen him , but it's just not destinied yet . Praying every second to Allah just the thing that me calm so far :)
I'll write again someday , somehow .
With lots of loves ,
Syafiqaa .
