*gah, my hips are acting like rusted metals nowadays -____________-
oh, hello folks :) im back from vacation 3 days ago and today am going back to hos-hell (currently now is 2:19am) holidays were not too short nor too long. its the perfect duration when i finally fly on an airplane, shopping cool stuffs, finishing all my homeworks, hanging out with mom, having feasts with my large family, went back to hometown and cried alot. haha. yeah, its fine to me, eventually. im kinda happy that i did not waste THAT much time during this holidays but i may not want to brag cause i know someday i'll pay for it. and im not sleeping yet which mom is knocking the door that makes me shocked all the time -.-'
soohh, lemme tell ya about gold coast, yeah it was fun. it wasn't freezin when we first arrived. but it was becoming more freezin cold on the 4th day. everyone's lips were pale and dried. hahah, and it seems awkward cause those australians were SLEEVELESS! and wearing shorts -.- idk how they survived -.- actually, im not that kind of 'cold' type person. i like warmth and that's the only thing that i'd wished for when i was there. well, we did alot of shoppings, souvenirs, shirts, handbags and i tell ya, there would probably more stuffs i want to dig in there ;]
my love story, hmph, nothing interesting since im learning to love again. nehh, it doesnt matter. well, it does matter but it actually doesnt which i want it to be does. uhh er erm, actually, the secret is, i fall for an another guy. no, its not what you guys think its him, but a guy who actually already in a relationship with another girl. yeahh, a guy i took a long time to fall for. haha, how bad am i? falling for my friend's boyfriend and hurting someone else's feelings? yah, DUMP ME. but, i couldnt help this feelings, i like to see them together but imagining that im the cause of their separation? hell no, im not gonna be the one who destroys others' relationships. but secretly, i do like him, very much.
if the girl already knew, or just having a psychic moments who she know her boyfriend is the one im crushing on; im really really dreadfully SORRY. its not an option to fall for someone. its beyond my control but i'll try to control myself to not let anything worse happen. i just wanna ensure you that im not gonna steal your hubby away from you and please i dont want to make any of our friendship destroy because of this. im just, SORRY.
"sometimes i felt like wanting to have a remote control so i can make everything in this world be mine, especially you"
xoxo,
Syafiqaa.
