Thank you, me :')

i dont know what i am, i'll never realize why i live for. i lost reason to live. im not strong eventhough my laughter always show me does. haha you never thought who i am like who you saw. im a total jerk to live, am too bad to be treated. i dont deserve to live like a normal person does. i kept on advising people to be strong and dont underestimate ourselves. but, i cant stop thinking negatives about myself. i make everyone suffer, a lot. i just, i lose hope :')