currently im missing him, right now, this every seconds. he made me addicted to him. im loving this feeling. yeah i know, puppy loves. it wont last until you married to him or what. common advises from elders for youngsters. but they dont know how we adored their love stories while they were young and blamed on how the world changes. i hate when they did that.
after i broke up with zul in the pass 9 months, i thought i couldnt live without him. well he was everything to me. he was like the shoulder whenever i cry, and the person who always got shits from me, always standing strong with wounds on his heart. yeah i know zul, i broke you a lot aint i? i do care it for the first time, but now, i wont and i couldnt care much. only God knows how much you pretended and lied. and the most saddest part is, you wouldnt care what you'll gonna be. just enjoy your life, would you? :) now, we do hate each other. i left you, and you decided to leave our disaster-ending-fairy-tale too. so, jyeah, dont worry cause you always didnt, i can live with it ;) happy finding a girl who you can lay your shits on with promising every sweet stuffs until she can believe you in every little words you're gonna say. and to the luckiest girl ever, may you be by his side till you got your happy ending ever last relationship :) sucka.
sorry i may be a bitch sometimes, but this past already hurts me a lot until i couldnt stop smiling when i thought of it. i know God put me through all these to teach me how to be strong every second. so, He wouldnt see me fail and weak. and im grateful, much grateful. Alhamdulillah :)
there where began my life and my mr. moo aka atok. we didnt knew each other that much during 2010, our form 1 times. he told me, the first time he began to fall for me which was during the choir practice. i was standing at the back of him and said "apasal tinggi sangat mamat ni, makan apa lah". then he turned around and gave a cold look. you always do that sayang until now. "oh okok, sorry sorry". what? i was terrified that time. if not, i wouldnt apologize to you lah. geesh -_-" that was the first time. i didnt realize you fell for me, at all. cause im no pretty girl. who would want to fall for me? -___-"
then, people started to put on gossips between me and you. you started to text me, and i didnt entertain much of your texts and you finally gave up. kan? bweekk, you did. loser betul -_-'. haha, the giving-up-process didnt last long. you started to text me again this year. thats when i started to fall for you. we did our practices in the hall. you were in badminton and i was in pingpong. i observed you everyday. and with the sweat and the cool 'swoosh' of your hair, sumpah woi, mana perempuan tak cair. #godmalunyaaa. *coughcough. ignore that part. my gals, they already know, how i fell for you. and still, i couldnt believe it.
first time meet. many didnt believe it either. they were shocked, suprised and many other expressions. haha. i was crying that time because one of this incident. my eyes were red. you came and asked whats wrong. i said nothing cause you took my attention away that time. dont you know it? i was breathless. ah chong said that my face turned red "MUKA SYAPA MERAH!". dang, of course i was shy at that time. he, mohamad hafifi, took my breath away :'>
we love hard, argue a lot, and tease each other often. he's like the friend i never knew. he's like the brother i never had. and the one and only prince charming i never thought of being with before. he's not perfect, he's imperfection made me wants him, so much. he made me wiser, stronger and more truthful to myself. he made me learn the meaning of life, with those hard and easiness. i hope he's the only for me, forever and eternity.
openhouse. this is the most overwhelming part. only God knows how much i love you. we talked about him coming to my house whenever he could. suddenly, mom texted me that she'll be doing an open house that saturday. i asked him to come over. he said that he's gonna think about it first. and i said okay. fyi he's home is at tanjung karang. ya know how far it is from tanjung karang to ampang? miles kan? he made me happy like no one else. thanks a lot atok :') we hanged at kedai mamak and eat roti canai together. we walked and laughed in the rain together. it'll always and forever be meaningful to me :')
we fought on and off during our 1st until 5th months. believe me honey, no man would do that to me. just you. it made me love you like no one else. you mad at me for lying to myself and didnt tell you whats bothering me. because you know, i couldnt handle it alone, but yet, im stubborn to do as you told so.
to a boy named Mohamad Hafifi, thanks and sorry for so much mistakes ive done to you. i know, no boy worth my teenage years. but you, you left something in me. you made me a person like no one else did. you made love as a positive thing so that i wouldnt be left alone and i can enjoy it with you. thanks for making me your princess, as i will be yours forever :)
loves,
syapa xx.
