i don't care what people gonna say when i post this entry. i don't care how people gonna react when i'm gonna say all of this. do you know why?
its because i'm lazy to care any more.
i love being myself, i just love how myself acts or speaks even in disgusting languages. because me, myself knows why i did that and the reasons behind it. i always hid from telling the truths, even though sometimes i did. i always never satisfied of everything. life, love, all kind of relationships. it seems to not make me satisfy even though i cried hard-core-ly for it. it never even worked.
yeah, i know. its my fault. its forever will be my fault. for not trusting you, for hitting you hardly until you couldn't be able to breathe. for swearing huge shits and promised to make your life miserable. i am bad, am i? but wait until you look yourself in the mirror. then we'll know who is more worse.
i'm wrong, for still remembering you. i thought i couldn't be able to live without you after we separated. but, i lived, because i've been living for 12 years before you stepped into my life. so why can't i live another more without you in it? but, i missed you so much. and i realized no one can replace you.
HAHA, imma jerk right? blame me, waste me. im not worth to love. yeah it's been all about me. never even look and think about how he feels. he should never had been treated this way. never.
out of words.
