Ready?
ok dude, kalau rasa blog posts aku sakit hati tak payah la bukak kay? senang lah, goshhhhh. tu pun nak kena ajar ke?
sekarang aku sendiri dah unfollow kau, thank God you don't need to read my tweets. Alhamdulillah
lol apa aku cakap tu betul okay? nak sangat tunjuk bukti, manaaaa? get a life la bro. lifeless betul -.-
ugut macam gangsta yeah kau GANGSTAR sangat en hahahahahaha. itu lu punya otak ha kasi makan dulu. okay?
eeeeiiiiiiiiyyyyyyy geramnya aku dengan kau. tak payah la menyemak dengan hidup aku lagi.
kau ada hidup kau en, hidup la!! you're beyooooonnnddd my style of living.
and yeah, apa kau kata? AKU TAKNAK MENGALAH? BODOH SOMBONG? EGOISTIC?
jyeahh cheers sebab
AKU TAKKAN MENGALAH DENGAN ORANG TAK GUNA MACAM KAU.
ada faham? mohon terasa dan mohon sedarlah diri tu. terima kasih daun keladi :>
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cerita baru....
sorry above post was meant for some useless person.
sekarang cerita sedih pulak.
kenapa susah sangat Epy nak pay attention kat aku ah cuti ni? yeah i do respect him since he does really tons of heavy works at home but couldn't he tell me?
couldn't he just text me "Eh I nak buat kerja banyak ni, nanti dah habis terus I text you balik". tak boleh?
TAK BOLEH? KE MALAS? KE SUSAH SANGAT?
bongok, i'll wait for you lah. even i tidur pun pegang phone mana tahu kalau you call tahu tak!
since the day we had this really really big fight some sort of a battle, he suddenly changed. i barely know him anymore.
dia macam "You tak boleh tunjuk you marah I, or else..."
but I know, Epy is a nice guy. everybody sees that and knows his characters so well. I'm the reason why he changed. i'm too selfish (?) yeah, i do love my pride. so much. sorry guys.
kalau aku tulis ni, tak tentu in 4 or 5 months dia akan baca. next year pun tak sure. hmmm i don't expect him to read this either.
it's just... these things happened continuously and it's hard to take it in yknow. to negotiate with that ego feeling of mine and put myself in his shoes.
i mean, i'm talking about our kind of complicated relationship. i always said to myself, "epy baik, yeah maybe you'll find a nicer guy soon or otherwise. but live this while and pay for his deeds towards you. or you'll be so regretful"
i love him, i really do. perasaan dengan dia lain daripada lelaki lelaki sebelum ni.
before with other boys; "ohh aku sayang dia, i want to be with him forever. ilysdfm!!"
but now with him; "i know i can't be his forever. but i really do love him and i'll pray the best of him as long as i live. during present and hereafter"
see the difference? yeah maybe i'm too young to say those kind of stuffs. but syukur Alhamdulillah, i realized it earlier.
just let my feet lead me to where i should go. insyaAllah.
nak bagi ucapan sikit kat Epy kalau dia terbaca benda ni;
ehem ehem Assalamualaikum. hi :> kalau you tengah baca ni, i just nak cakap. thanks for making my life so wonderful during your presence. yeah, banyak yang kita dah buat together, out in the rains, photographs, ping pong matches, we supported each other during volleyball tournament, kejora kuala kelawang & langkawi :') rollercoaster rides, first movie, first karaoke and other stuffs. banyak sangat kalau nak cerita hahaha. i harap you bahagia dunia & akhirat, dapat jadi apa yang you nak, dapat family bahagia. amin ~ i try jadi lagi baik, lagi tak ego hahaha lagi jenis yang boleh bergurau and tak sensitive all the time. and and yang faham tanggungjawab you kpd family you. insyaAllah. don't worry, i'll be nice :3 jangan lupa doakan i jugak kay? jadi orang yang baik bila dah besar nanti. jangan lupa parents and family. i tahu you boleh :)
with lots of loves,
syafiqa abdul hanif.
