Yes, no objections. It's true. That picture explains everything.I really don't like how life is playing with me right now. How my heart lying that I don't need him anymore. How conversations hiding the truths about I'm not meant to be with him. How mom smiles in front of me feeling like I'm doing the right thing.
It's all reality yet, I'm still dreaming in my nightmare, where I don't have anyone to rely on. To really rely on. Nobody to call at night, nobody to cry to, nobody to be angry for, nobody to scream in joy with. I'm just empty.
Yes, LIFE. Majority, it's all about love. A thing that eventually relating your heart and your mind until it collapse together. And make you can't think anything and do the right things. Sometimes it make you regret for doing things and follow your heart. Nobody, even the experts, can't deny it.
Every night crying on my bed thinking how the dull night filled with laughs and tears with him, I just wished it wouldn't be this way. Yes, I'm a jerk, I'm dumb, I'm the one who dumped him but neither one of us can runaway from it. I just.. ugh, need someone LIKE him. Truthfully, I do really need him. Everyone are probably saying it's just too late, and you'll need to be responsible for the consequences. Yes, I AM SUFFERING. But, I just need to be strong.
"Syafiqaa, you have loads of things to do. Responsibilty as a daughter, student, friend and also human. You are my strong girl. I understand and respect all your actions because I believe in you. And please, don't make me dissapointed for always I love you" :')
-Dad
Goodnight ♥
