Life is raining with cold stones right now. Hitting me hardly, not on the head. Those sharp edges are currently tearing my heart out. Don't know why, I tried hardly everyday to survive, but still, it's a waste. After one another problems came rolling by and set me off. Until I felt I just wanted to stop all of this. I'm tired, really. It's a difference between me and anybody else. Me? I don't have anyone, to rely on, to share my problems with, to repair my weaknesses together. I'm a useless girl. Nobody would understand.
It's just hurt when everybody starts to ignore you, starting to realize you're not there. Starting to realize too you're not important. I'm not the one who can stand on her own. It feels like I ONCE had a bestfriend, just ONCE. The friend whom I thought she is my bestfriend may be thinks like I'm a waste. Just a person who she only would spend her time telling problems and not her happiness. Yeah girl, I AM A WASTE. Happy?
Backstabbers, liars, pretenders, all makes me thought back in my past. When I USED to have my bestfriends around me. We shared our problems, laughed, made problems, studied, crushed on the same boy, wear the same shirts, shared the same lunch, listen to the same band. I realized how awful I need Khayrin and Najwa beside me all the time. I just need them, awfully.
Girls, when you're reading this, I just want you guys to know that I awfully missed you very much. I'm sorry that I'm not a good friend before. I'll try to be and please accept me the way I am, because you guys know the REAL me :)
I miss you guys so much.
Sincerely,
Syafiqaa.
